for not being able to give back what uve given.
for not being there when u were there for me.
for not caring as much as u cared for me.

i juz wanna tell u how much i appreciate u.
i dunno if tht matters.
but i juz wanna sae thank u for being so understanding. Thursday, February 16, 2006 at 10:17 PM

hahaha. todae my nice good fren geraldine told me tht i liked tanwanlin. and i was totally diaoded. the possibility of me falling in love with tanwanlin is onli a mere 0.1% ( i wun sae theres no possibility but yes. its almost impossible.) but anw the point is she kept on insisting tht i liked her and i was so diaoded tht i cudnt be bothered anymore. hahaha. end of story. anw geraldine is a vv nice person juz tht she teased me on a totally baseless basis. -.-" juz u wait geri. i willl haf my REVENGE. muahahahaahahahhhaaaaaaaaa! ok. kiddin. =) anws congrats to all those hu did well for o's and cheer up to those hu din fare so well. yup. thts abt it. and i thank God for what he has given me again. Thank you Lord for being so super kind to me. =) Sunday, February 12, 2006 at 5:31 PM

i cant tell u how freaked i am abt tml. i PRAY so hard tht ill do well. Thursday, February 09, 2006 at 9:57 PM

i want to talk to tanwanlin.

but she seems inexistent now.

1. doesnt reply to msgs
2. doesnt answer phone
3. nvr tell me when she changes her no.
4. doesnt seem to have time
5. ive not seen her in ages

whr are u tanwanlin? Tuesday, February 07, 2006 at 10:09 PM

went to sirongs house on sat. it was realli fun but had to reach home before 930 coz parents wud get suspicious.. =/ wow.. his mom gave me a 4 buck hongbao which is realli generous esp when im juz a fren of his. cool. and she was realli friendly too. haha. miss sirongs company. hahaha. miss ahs all of e sudden. we played mahjhong and jiaxian was realli lag. lol. vanessa too. they kept trying to act like those pro gamblers and "feel" their opponents cards. this was of course futile. and i DIN get to lau yu shen coz i had to get home early.. guess thts why im stuck here at home. i actualli enjoyed myself.. and felt happy.

haha. actualli im feeling realli moody these few daes coz of being stuck at home.. or rather its more like i juz cant go out with her or any other frens hu are girls bcoz parents are suspicious. =/ heck they even suspect me when i went out scouts laa... juz wanna keep a low profile. haiz.. i vv sad coz i feel like im being selfish to want to keep her by my side and yet i cant make her happy coz i cant be there for her and go out and have fun with her and even calling is a problem.. hahah. guess im seriously screwed... i realli think this thingy is gonna get worse after i get my o's results. hahhahaa. i guess i shoudnt be thinking of this but its like.. i actually felt she isnt tht happy with me anymore.. and she was happier when we were still juz friends.. i cant help but feel tht im not doin my part and like guilty and stuff but then again i cant go out or ill get seriously screwed if i get caught. i feel like a thief hus trying to sneak out everytime i try to go out.. it almost makes me not enjoy myself going out.. haha.. do u honestly still wanna stay by my side? haha.. even ur fren kind of said i was selfish and chauvinistic and din care bout ur feelings which means ure sad but ure putting up with this crap.. =/ i feel like a sucker.

tried msging tanwanlin. but now it seems so distant to msg her any more.. haha. like shes leading her own life out there now and ill juz e butting in by telling her my probs.. hahah.. shes a busy girl.. haha. so i guess itll juz be me and God handling this prob.

i pray to God ill get good results for o's so tht i can get to tj and make my parents happy so they can make me happy by going easy on me...

haha. tanwanlin ar tanwanlin.. i wish i cud keep u updated.. but i dunno how i can do tht when my telephone line is cut off most of e time.. den hp cannot msg much.. den cant go out..den u got no time.. haha.. but e thought tht u bothered to find out bout me is quite comforting laa... so thank u es.. ull alwaes be my es la. dun worry. u can alwaes come to me when u haf probs la. and ill... try not to go to u with mine.. coz ure a busy girl.. i think it isnt fair to keep bugging u like in e past anymore.. hahah. u can read this bloggie of mine to update.. but i hope i can update alot.. i HOPE.

haha... wonder when ill be free again. rite now this lil bird is in a cage. Sunday, February 05, 2006 at 8:57 PM

havent been able to update. been disallowed the frequent use of the computer. no time to use it either. cant go out. dad and mum wun let me. theyre suspicious. stuck at home. feeling guilty. of not being able to do things. feeling moody. making me a totally boring person when i can actually do things. and lastly i feel bad. for i know bcoz of all of e above, sumone is feeling bad too.

tell me what can i do. Friday, February 03, 2006 at 9:12 PM

tummyache now. muz be my mother's slightly uncooked chicken. ewww la. or maybe i gorged down my food too much. its been such a long time since i last had a tummy ache. oww. cant blog now. Wednesday, January 25, 2006 at 9:18 PM